so im establishing nothing i do, will ever turn out with a good outcome.
i feel like im stuck in a maze going around around, same old problems, thoughts, feelings that i had before. you would of thought i would of learn by now. nope obviously getting burnt over and over again thinking maybe things might change would help change the situation, obviously i  am too naive and an idiot of thinking that.
SAM for hecks sake, just face the facts.
1. it will never happen in a million years.
2. stop hoping it will
3.learn to move on!

i wish i would take my own advice but obviously its not going to happen.

 "YOU WONT BE NEEDING THIS ANYMORE!"

2010

so its now 2010. scary i know, in four months i shall be 18 heck yes. i think im glad to see the new year, a fresh start where i want to make the right decisions and the right choice in how i want my life to turn out. i feel that just maybe this year i might have the luck i need to make me alittle happier then what i am now, to be honest i feel im stuck, its like there is a pitch fork in my road and im awaiting for something to remove it because its stopping me getting to where i want to be, i just hope its sometime soon i just want my life to pan out right.
some days i really think i have too high expectations for myself and that i push myself and i am to hard on myself that the things that i have done are not good enough. but i guess its just the way i am. i just hope i can a achieve well this year.
but in the mean time im working  and will be starting newstep in march, which is a big change.
i hoping by the end of this year i will get into bachelor of music, have my p's, find myself a decent guy, pay off my debts and saved for a trip over seas paris and venice would do lovely.. =]

only time can tell..

so i have my car. i got it yesterday, i swear its like christmas on halloween. i love it, though i spent all the hard earn money from working at coles, its worth it. even now so i need to save more to get  a new stereo and car seat covers. woo super cheap auto ftw.

now to get my ps =]

5 down 1 to go HELLO FREEDOM!

i get my car this week, probably the most exciting thing to happen in ages. or and the part where i have 2 more hsc exams left, well it shall be only one when i have music tomorrow. i cant wait to be free.

I can clearly tell you i hate ancient history. errr exam 1:55pm to 5pm monday. who does that seriously? around about that time of day i'm out of it and tired, my brain isnt its intelligent state at that time. these three hours will be hell.



i've been having alot of flash backs lately, whether its only a few years or go or back further, its kinda nice but sad at them same time since i'm getting older and life isn't what it use to be.
i remember when i was younger like 5 or 6 of my parents and grandparents taking me and my relatives from England to Old Sydney Town, a theme park just based on history, i loved it and because i was so little i thought it was real, i enjoyed the walk through history, but i can never revisit that memory due to they close it down many years ago because todays generation would rather computer games and thrill rides such as the ones in QLD. its depressing how the things thats are educational are the ones to go first. damn you technological generation DAMN you

Strokes lead singer brings out solo album :Phrazes for the Young!

so Julian Casablancas from the strokes new solo album comes out the 30th of this month. I'm very excited i love his voice its the best. the deluxe edition can be bought of the internet which i am getting as a christmas present, so even though this wont be sent till december im able to download his album on the site of the day its released. hell yeah!

im definately looking forward of playing this album in my car. :)